By Neeharika
Though I have been scared for myself quite a few times before, I have never been afraid of myself until now / she breaks down in front of me and all I do is rub her back / not because I don't care but the lack of words in the moment weighed me down and shook me to my core / my eyes brimmed with tears and they told me to let it out / “I can't” / not because I don't want to but I haven't been able to for a while and that's eating me up / I swallow and keep my thoughts bottled up to avoid conflicts / I say, "Yeah, you're right" just so the conversation doesn't go south / my mind is in a constant whirlwind and if I don't put an end to it, I might get lost / I know overworking will get me nowhere but this guilt gnaws at me / "You never try hard enough" / will I ever learn how to deal with someone I love changing into an entirely different person (at night)? / you
were standing there all alone on thin ice and I rushed to you when I saw the surface crack / I broke my ankle in the process (mind you, I don't know how to skate) / but when I finally reached where you were, all you did was give me a dry look and yelled, "Did I ask you to save me?" / my instincts tell me things are going to take a turn for the worse before they even do / and I start living in paranoia / what if everyone around me is only pretending? / I romanticise my life in hopes of making you stay because I know my love won't be enough / kinda messed up but I don't know any other way / even when everything's going right in the world, there's an emptiness that I just can't seem to decipher / what do you do when you want to stop running because your feet are tired but the timber bridge is rapidly collapsing and you've got no other choice?
MJ.
By Neeharika
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